I feel like I keep forgetting to breath lately and need to make a conscious effort to do so. It's like sleep apnea while I am awake.

no champagne to christen my blog

so i don't know where (if anywhere) this adventure is going to lead. i hope that it comes to more fruition then this; its maiden entry.
my plans for this are simple; to have a place of expression which will be shared out anonymously. alas, i will be another faceless person which hides his shame behind the cloak of internet anonymity... vocalizing those things which i am too (ashamed, embarrassed, proud, whatever) to share publicly with an accountable identity.
to some, including myself, this is perhaps a cowardly way to share and limiting of one's personal growth... but at this stage, it is all i can muster. i don't have any planned direction with this blog and with this "costume" i've assumed, i am afforded freedoms i cannot currently have as me.
who knows... should this go well and i grow enough or come to grips with the reality of "me" (what and whomever that is) i may be able to demolish this safe house that i've built and stand as i am... receiving support or criticism with dignity.

there is a place for you to share your thoughts here or to email entries; so have at it.

thanks for reading...
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